She has been dubbed a home wrench and hooker, so it’s no surprise that Tiger Wood’s most famous mistress doesn’t like the “stigma” of her romance.
Though she carried her soul to HBO through her affair Tiger Woods, Rachel Uchitel It’s still awkward to talk about her romance. The 45-year-old admits that, more than 10 years after their relationship became front-page news, she’s still “painful” to talk about the golf legend.
“This whole conversation is painful for me,” admits the former hostess of the New York club during an interview HollywoodLifeDays before the second part of the HBO documentaries, Tiger, airs. “I don’t like to talk about it. It is really uncomfortable for me. I like the stigma of none of this. I tried to get away from it. People don’t let go of it. You want to shame me for it. “
Rachel Uchitel breaks her silence about her affair with Tiger Woods in the HBO documentaries “Tiger.” (AP)
It’s no surprise Rachel looks like she’s about to crawl out of her skin when pushed to talk about tigers. Her relationship with the goat changed her life forever when it became public knowledge in November 2009. Until then, he wasn’t just a legendary golfer. He was a golden boy with an image that couldn’t have been more squeaky. Beautiful woman. Two lovely children.
Then, on Thanksgiving Night, several weeks after the National Enquirer accused him and Rachel of having an affair, he crashed his car near his home in Florida after his then-wife Elin Nordegren confronted his lover on the phone.
The rest is tabloid history. For weeks, woman after woman called in, claiming that they too had affairs with Tiger. He publicly apologized, went to rehab for sex addiction, and divorced his wife. Although his image was eventually rehabilitated, Rachel says it wasn’t and she continues to be attacked in person and online for the affair.
Tiger – pictured here with ex-wife Elin and daughter Sam – was married when he was with Rachel. (AP)
“I’ve obviously made some mistakes in my life and I feel terrible about it,” she says. “But that’s between me and the people I’ve been involved with [with]… People who don’t know me, who don’t know about me, and who I’ve never hurt, are so angry with me as if I did something to them personally. And that’s not right. And the media made me responsible for other people’s decisions, and that’s not right either. “
In Part 2 of the Tiger documentaries, viewers can see what Rachel means. Paparazzi follow her in old footage, surround her car, stick cameras in her face and shout questions about her sex life as she tries to scurry away. In another clip Joy Behar on The View calls her a “hooker”. A decade later, it still sticks.
“That hurt me of course. It was horrible to hear her… ”she says, adding,“ To this day people still call me a whore. I am not a hooker. That’s ridiculous.”
Rachel says people still publicly berate her even when she’s out with her 8-year-old daughter. Wyatt. “I hope you get AIDS and die,” is an insult she heard. “I hope that you are in a car accident and that your daughter has a new mother,” is another.
“Sometimes I’m silent. Sometimes when I’m with a friend my friend becomes aggressive. Sometimes I get up for myself… ”says Rachel, who lives in Florida. “It just depends where I am. It depends on whether I’m with my child. “
While Rachel admits that sleeping with a married man was wrong, she also believes that the unhealthy relationships she had were a result of “love addiction.” She has had therapy and raves about the Transcend rehab centers, which have helped her come to terms with her life trauma and realize that she was using love to ease her pain. “Love addiction, in the simplest sense, confuses intensity with love,” says Rachel, who claims that in the past she “didn’t understand love.”
Her father died of a cocaine overdose when she was just 15 years old. Her lover, Andy O’Gradywas killed in the terrorist attack on September 11, 2001. And then there was Tiger. All three events were reported in the media at the time.
“There is no such thing as normal,” she says and later admits. “I found myself believable by finding the most important person in the room … the most sought-after person in the room. Whoever wanted this person, when they wanted me, gave me credibility. That’s how I found my version of love. “
In retrospect, she says she would “do things very differently”. To this day, she feels that her reputation has not recovered from her affair with Tiger. “They’re always looking for a comeback,” she says. For Rachel, who has been firmly in control for a decade, Tiger is her shot. “I really hope this documentary will spark a conversation about how the media deals with situations like this. To build people up and then want to tear them down, ”she says. She thinks how Monica Lewinsky and Bill ClintonShe can’t shake the connection with Tiger Woods.
Part 2 of ‘Tiger’ will air January 17th at 9 p.m. ET on HBO. (Courtesy HBO)
When asked what she would say to a woman whose affair with a married megastar is rumored in the media, Rachel does her best. “Try to keep your head up and do the best you can,” she says. “It’s really hard. And I hope you don’t make it hurt.” The second and final part of Tiger will air on HBO on Sunday, January 17th at 9:00 pm ET.